Head of Devin

Friday, April 10, 2026

4. & 5. USEFUL IDIOT/FORTY SIX & 2

No huge blog entry this month.
Happy birthday to me.

Ciao)))

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Sunday, March 29, 2026

3. H.

Where do I start for this month?

Do I start with a false sense of positivity, even though the blackest cloud is overcast above my being? Do I bear my soul and overshare in abundance and try to rhetorically question everything? Do I start off with a greeting, even though I have no clue who even looks at blogs anymore? I mean, at this point, in this day and age, do blogs have any impact on thought or conscious? See here I go rhetorically questioning everything. So I guess that's where we start. Rhetorical! Rhetorical! OK, I shall reign it in. Grab this blog by the horns. And take control of my own conscious.

I will now bear the soul. I need to confirm with all friends and family to please don't mistake my niceness as weakness or whatever. I am too nice for my own good. At times I am also too patient. So much so, others non-patience is exposed, especially when in line for the post office. I give postal workers all the time, they take to much crap from folks in my personal opinion. But I digress, my way can be different from the pack. It's been something I have observing of myself for many years. But one thing for sure. Please don't fuck with me. I have boundaries. I have instituted a level of personal conscious and self commitment, I am un-fucking-touchable. Any argument is up for shreds. Because my stance on things is so grounded, you will have to be strong with your points, views, and show some evidence. I am getting tired of being stepped on. I am even at times wondering if I should sever family ties. My mind getting fatigued to the max with family stress, technology, politics, society and even those I live with. All these things that bother me, I feel like I am being tested. The way of the world. Life. Has a way of carrying itself. Like, there's this energy that is so free and there, that it could very well be the dark matter we speak of. The ether. Thin air. I know I sound crazy. Overwhelmed? Maybe. Fed up? For sure. I am in a time of my life where I want to prolong how I can live a simple life and do the things that I want to do with little to no obstacles. Just like everyone else right? Then why is it so hard or complicated? What makes it a chore to achieve such a thing? Maybe. Just maybe. We fight energy we can't see or quantify in real life yet? [puts hands up] I don't know. I am just a guy who does dishes for a casino, raises a kid with his wife, lives with his mentally unstable and religious sister-in-law, lives with a room mate who is kind, lives with an adorable cat, puts up with a homeless brother-in-law who lives in my derelict car in the back parking lot, plays in a metal band, and smokes and consumes (self medicates?) as much cannabis as he can, just to put up with all the bullshit surrounding him. Look. Now I am talking about myself in third person. Ugh...should I just end todays entry now? [shrugs]

Observation. So many. I live my life with it. One of my friends (he passed away a couple years ago, Chris) felt closer to me because of it. We bonded over our keen observant nature. From looking at the big picture, to zeroing in and getting to the most minute iota of a fact. Just walking into a room or structure, surveilling the scene immediately. Maybe it's a form of the spectrum. Or maybe it's a gift among gifts. I even observe people. Friends and family. Complete strangers when I an out doing errands. Sometimes I wonder if it is a hinder. But nothing yet. I bring this up because I think humanity needs to observe more. Body behavior. Human interaction. Road rage. I don't know how many times I have spoke to myself (in my head and under my breath) and told myself "Not today, Devin."

I am in the belief that humanity is at odds naturally because of the lack of respect for each other. I know. "Real broad stroke there, Best" I know. But fuck. War, corruption, homicide...the machine rolls on. I was born in 1978. By the time I was observant to world events, the cold war was at it's highest. The threat of nuclear war loomed into the 80s. TV films like The Day After seemed real. When I was sick with a fever, I had a fever dream of the apocalypse (I still think of it to this day). When I was a child, America was at odds with the Soviet Union. When the Iron Curtain dropped, things kinds seemed cool. But only in certain areas of the world. What is interesting of the 80s and under, was coverage wasn't as wide as it is now. With the power of the Internet, things have little to squeak by without reporting. In the 80s, there's probably things we don't know of that have been buried by time. With that said, with modern events, folks can now be thrown in jail for even a social media post (would hate to live in that country). Viewpoints, be it religious or political, can generate controversy in nano-seconds. One thing from my observation of things, is...it's amazing how things just become things and the fallout thereafter is something we all have to deal with on a large and small level. Certain human traits are tested more and more each day. Especially empathy and compassion. The ones who express it are fewer than the ones who ignore it in my opinion. Hence the toxic situations at home and abroad. People haven't overcome ultimate acceptance. Division has loomed it's hand across the globe (yes, I said globe, suck a fart flat-Earthers, I certainly divide myself from you fucks). Once we overcome self-social-division, maybe we'll get somewhere. But still, fuck flat-Earthers.

Epstein files, war, conspiracies, religion, politics, corruption, fraud, crime, evil, greed, and so on. If there was only a way none of these things can make individuals radicalized. Too bad common sense hasn't dictated. I mean, would it be low hanging fruit with upbringing and the lack of? Once again. Rhetorical. Not unless you really want to discuss. The comment box is there. Not trying to instigate. But to have that type of interaction is available. I think it's healthy. Even if the opposing side stays opposed. I have always expressed that there is always going to be a yin to a yang. Positive to a negative. It seems natural by now. I have a feeling not all folks are tuned into themselves to feel or notice it. It is suppressed. Either by nature or nurture. And that is always been the catalyst for discovery. In human nature and behavior. Too bad no one helps. Even themselves. Some get riled. I get it. What you don't understand is sus. So to speak.

I really don't know where I am going with this. I thought I was on to something, but I am even getting fatigued with this blog entry. It's not like I am some specialist or doctor. Once again, I am just a dishwasher in a casino. But to try and find the answers is human nature. We shouldn't be discriminated for seeing any opposing side. Especially in this so-called free country. Seems the powers that be want to test how much fascism they can instill upon the masses. Luckily not everyone is smelling what they're cooking. Seems like. And that is good. But there needs to be more numbers. More folks should speak there mind. Not be afraid of making folks clutch their pearls.

It's been a heck of a month. An old class mate called me because they were suicidal and needed somebody to be with them. I felt bad I couldn't be there for them. I have a wife and kid, and when the class mate reached out, I was just off work heading home. I have to admit. I was thrown for a loop. Especially after myself, since expressing depressive black clouds that were over me on Facebook at the beginning of the month. I felt guilty for expressing for myself, but not being there for someone else in an instant. As the days went by after their call, I chalked it up to the person not knowing my life and realizing the boundaries laid are what they are. But I really don't know. I hope they are OK. I can only help, but within reason. And I only let myself be close to just a few individuals. I am not ready to immediately be there for someone else unless they are super SUPER close to me. Just how it is. I apologize ahead of anything for that fact.

Getting older. I realize what I want more and more. Not just materialistically. But boundaries-wise. And pertaining to my living situation, I want a more simpler life. I just want to live with my wife and kid. No one else. It's getting more and more of a hassle to live with my sister-in-law (who lives in a corner of our house) and my brother-in-law (who sometimes but not all time uses my old Buick parked in the back to sleep or congregate with other homeless druggies). They are to me, a nuisance. Would I tell my wife this? I have. But even she knows, she needs change. Change to simpler life. We do not these people muddying up our life. At least that's how I feel. I am even getting fatigue from all their bullshit. I know my family (especially my son) is seeing it. I long for the day we are in a new (or new-to-us) house, and it's just that, us. To dream.

I leave with this last paragraph or so with words. I know I have been expressing what I have been into (the "Favorite Things") in minute detail, and not much of that has changed since last month. But I will leave with expressing I love my family. My wife and son. My mom, dad and sister. All the relatives on both sides. My band Khaos Driver is in the works. Finishing mixes for our first demo EP. And we have one show booked in the summer (July 25th in Wenatchee, Wally's House of Booze). We do want to perform more, so I will for sure be sending word this way to whoever scopes this blog. I appreciate anyone who takes their time to read my nonsense. Hopefully it helps. If not. Fuck, we're both screwed I guess. Try and sleep from that one?

Alright everyone,

Ciao)))

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My dad and I

Friday, February 27, 2026

2. EULOGY

Whoa. Whoa. Whooooaaaaa.....

It's already the last few days of February? Holy shit. It feels like time has gone by so fast. I know. Cliche statement right? Oh boy. Anyhoo. Don't really have an idea who is scrolling my blog. But. Here I am yet again. Cut off all my hair. Trimmed off the beard and mustache. Writing into this blog. How about the world huh? Serious. What is going on? So many hot button shit fuck issues right now, it sucks to scroll my primary vertical video algo rhythm (Instagram Reels). The files. Civil unrest. Fraud and corruption abundant. We're living in a grindcore song, I swear. Either we are close to a civil or third world war (which I was scared of in the 80s ferchrissakes) or we are geo-political slaves to a foreign country building a new world order for the Antichrist. lol See where I am getting at here? Fuck! I have no evidence to such nonsense, but who does? I am not gonna waste your time here thinking I know everything (agreed it's annoying when folks do right? Who the fuck are they? lol) Also, I do not know or want to speculate how things are gonna go down. To predict such things, seems strenuous. I couldn't imagine giving all my time to the conspiracies and propaganda from the algo rhythm. And if I did, how would I pay to drive, live, and eat? lol Propaganda and conspiracies have always been a doozy throughout the ages. And it's like, even the side your on has it's own propaganda and conspiracies as well. So it's like you're damned if you do and you're damned if you don't right? I try to not get crossed up in the panty bunch of foreign policy. You'd like to think we have experts in office to handle this shit, but yo, doesn't seem like nobody wants to do there job. It's bad enough there's that type of behavior in a shit job like McDonald's. But a seat in the office? For the government? Like fuck, do what you're supposed to do for the American people. But even that has it's hassles I guess. And shit just swirls into a giant cesspool of fuck. To the point no one cares and walks away from the problem, passing the buck to the next poor fool. I don't know. Just how it seems. How it feels. If I found the answer to all this shit, would I even be satisfied? Or would I be even more upset because no result would pacify. I keep racking my brain, but eventually give up and take a bong hit. Fuck, for all I know, that type of escapist behavior is just as bad as the things I am against, so I am ipso facto, not any help at all. Insane right? I am even confusing myself here. I usually ignore world politics and try to keep it local and only worry about county-wide or surrounding counties issues. But I even slack there. Since things happen slower here in Omak. Some folks even nicknamed Omak, "Slow-mak". lol Good one. What it comes down to is trust and common sense. I will use my common sense. And hope folks will to. And for those without it. Like Mr. T said, "I pity the fool."

Battled some depression last week. Intrusive thoughts are a mutherfucker. I wonder if it was the weather. But that's low hanging fruit right? The human barometer effect can only go so far right? I concern myself it's my weed vice to blame. I truly don't know what to believe. On one hand, cannabis supposedly has it's potential to fuck with our brains. I like to think it's not the case. And I don't have proof it is. On the other hand, a recent study deemed weed isn't as bad as experts thought. I need to look into that more [looks off to the distance]. But shit fuck goddamit, for all I know, it's natural body chemistry due to my lack of taking care of myself. lol I don't exercise. I don't eat well. I don't take any meds. I have no full on professional diagnosis for what ails me. I keep pushing the limit of not taking care of myself. Leave it to me when I do try and take care of myself seriously, it will be too late. Oof, that would suck. "Body don't fail me now." lol I know the right answers. I just fail to carry out any action to warrant remedy. I am this "walking contradiction" if you will. Just like Travis Bickle. Let's hope I don't take dates to porn movies, drive taxis graveyard shift, purchase illegal weapons and...heeeeyyyyy. lol lol Taxi Driver reference, please don't clutch your pearls. lol I need to take better care of myself. It's self-evident.

Some good news. My son won fifth grade Student of the Month award at Pachal Sherman Indian School today. Super duper proud of him. He is so empathetic and generous. I know he was contender for Student of the Month because he was willing to give his own money (triple digits by the way) in a donation setup at his school. So cool. You know? The only thing we have been working with him is building his food palette and making sure he gets rest. Aside from that, so proud of him.

Favorite things:
My son and Chrystal, my dad and mom, my sister and nephew, my cat Fluffy Pants aka Meow Meows, Seattle Seahawks, snoozing before work, comfy clothes after work, weed, vanilla Coke, Safeway bakery donuts, Okanogan IGA donuts, Franz donuts (glazed), Franz pies (all the flavors), Hostess cupcakes, Hostess Suzy-Q's, Hostess Ding-Dongs, candy bars, iced mochas, mocha frappes, chicken, rice, asada burritos from taco trucks, pizza, homemade taco bowls, Chrystal's homemade soup, Despicable Me 1 and 2 (started watching with Nathan in the mornings), guitars, amps, amp sims, vinyl, buying vinyl from Discogs, comic books, Atomic Comics in Tacoma, WA (Shout out to Shane and crew), Comic Tom 101 and the Mystery Mail Call, Golden Age Guru, Legion of Skanks, Story Warz, The Regz, Kill Tony, Matt and Shane's Secret Podcast, Joe Rogan Experience (not a devout listener, easy there), Bill Burr Monday Morning Podcast, 2 Bears 1 Cave, Something's Burning with Bert Kreischer, Right Now with Jon Goblikon, Soder Podcast, Stavi's World Podcast, Your Mom's House Podcast, No Gleaming Light YouTube channel, Gore Grinder YouTube channel, SB Mowing YouTube channel, Posers Must Die!!! Podcast, Unsilent Storms Vinyl Stream (Twitch) and Unsilent Storms Radio Podcast (Soundcloud) hosted by DJ Herr Zett, Duff's Hell Hole (Twitch) hosted by DJ Duff 666, Ola Englund's YouTube channel, Let There Be Talk with Dean Delray, Garza Podcast, Real Ass Podcast with Luis J. Gomez & Zac Amico, Dead By Dawg YouTube channel, The Tim Dillon Show, Fly on the Wall with Dana Carvey and David Spade, Nardwuar's YouTube channel, Are You Garbage? Podcast, Club Random with Bill Maher, The Adam Carrola Show, Vine compilations, Nick Zentner's YouTube channel, bikini baristas, Instagram, Facebook, my car, the scablands, the forest, sunrises...

That is all for this month. I will bid you a bye bye.
Take care, please.

Much love,

Devv O)))